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I’ve told her since the beginning that I already know what’s going to happen.
When you know, everything is much easier. It’s better to know a miserable truth than to live the unknowing – even if that one might let grow some small piece of freedom. Certainty is always on top priority. It’s the fastest lie and the safest shield.
We’ll have issues. You’ll be disappointed with me and I’ll take you for granted. I won’t be enough and you’ll be too much. We’ll have to wake up early and feed the children. I won’t understand you and you’ll understand me better than I understand myself. And you won’t understand me. I’ll glance at other women. I won’t agree to show you my insecurities and vulnerabilities, and when I will, you’ll feel unsafe. We’ll both be predictable. It’s not like back in the days, when family was family, period. We’re a generation of individuals and there’s a fifty percent divorce rate. Now there’s romance, tomorrow it’s gone. In order for the relationship to work, we have to work. On ourselves and between ourselves, on trust and communication and readiness. You’ll change and I’ll change and we’ll have to find a way to change together without trying to change each other. How she’d react, that I also knew. It’s too much for her; she’s still a child and I’m fully grown. She thought she knew me. Now she won’t understand and she’ll get scared. she’ll ask questions, carefully. Then she’ll go home, confused.
And yeah.
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